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Shut Up, Kate

December 09, 2004 ... 9:36 a.m.

Bootsie: “It’s a damn shame I can’t kill him and get away with it.”

Okay. Fickle creature that I am, I have done a 180 on the Phantom of the Opera movie soundtrack. Well, not totally. Still not liking her. And I think they will portray Raoul as the handsome white knight that we’re supposed to love. But really? I just want to punch him in the face. A lot. His singing is nice, but listening to it, I would highly doubt his interest in Christine. Or, you know, women in general

And Minnie Driver sings “Learn to be Lonely” (lyrics below) and she’s really good and I love that song, but I identify with it too much and it makes me very sad and so I don’t listen to it much, even though I downloaded it.

And you can act all ‘holier-than-thou’ all you want and go on about buying your music ... let me assure you, with the exception of a few lesser-known bands and several Weezer songs that were put on their websites for free download by the artists themselves -- my massive mp3 collection consists entirely of songs I already have on cds or records. Want an example? Do you have “Fire” by The Crazy World of Arthur Brown? Have you ever even heard of it? I have. I have it on mp3 and a 45. That constitutes a legal back-up, so you can kiss mine, okay? And, although I have several Met@llic@ cds, I refuse to download them. Lars thinks I’m ripping him off (by the way, Lars, how did that whole calling-your-fans-dirty-thieves thing work out for you? New cd flying off the shelves, eh? Snerk.) and that’s not fair. It’s only fair when he rips me off by charging $25 for a cd of crap. At least when Weezer charges $15 for 33 minutes of music, Rivers put up album, remix, live and demo versions for free (of course, he does that for other albums, too. Apparently, he enjoys pissing his label off.). This explains why I have 8 different versions of “Buddy Holly” and “Undone”.

That and I have a lot of time on my hands.

ANYway, I have become quite enamored of Gerard Butler’s Phantom. I feel so disloyal. But then I think of their other attributes (namely Gerard’s ass) and feel less guilty. Very enamored, except Music of the Night, and I already know he will have me sobbing -- SOBBING -- at the end.

I think I’m getting sick again. The last couple of days I have been throwing up and I have been very tired and, I think, somewhat dehydrated. I don’t believe it is the flu, because I haven’t felt overall icky. Just like last year, except I haven’t turned yellow. Yet. I went in for some blood work yesterday and I hope my mind is making a mountain out of a molehill. Because if not, I am in big trouble. First my doctor, who doesn’t realize I still exist, is gonna kick my ass for just quitting my meds cold turkey -- and not telling her or, really, anyone. And secondly, a flare-up would mean it is definitively an autoimmune problem and, since I have liver damage from last year, my liver most likely couldn’t handle more damage, so I’d have to get on the transplant list. Which is totally gonna screw with my New Year’s plans. Again. Maybe it’s the flu. There’s something you don’t hear everyday ... gee, I hope I have the flu.

Note to JJ Abrams, David Fury, et al;

Do not do that to me again. Charlie must not die. Not before Kate, at any rate. Seeing him hanging ... and Kate making Jack stop? Jack should’ve substituted one of his heart-whacks for a roundhouse and shut her the hell up. Stop saving Charlie indeed, you hypocritical self-righteous, narcissistic slag.

Repeat after me ... Kate first, Kate first (more shirtless Sawyer), Kate first, Kate first (more snarky Walt) Kate first, Kate first (less Jack, more Sawyer) Kate first, Kate first ...

Learn To Be Lonely
by Minnie Driver
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you?
Comfort and care for you?
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You’ve always known
Your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived
Life can be loved
Alone

Also to those who have written to how I could love the Phantom --an obsessive stalker and multiple murderer ... things happen. Carlotta totally had it coming and, yet, she lived. Raoul lives, dammit. Anyone killed was killed in the efforts of self-preservation. And, hey, if it‘s good enough for Dubya ... Secondly, he shunned by his mother and society and forced to live in the Parisian underground/catacombs. I think it would behoove us to excuse his lack of social niceties. And he is very polite to Raoul when he tries to rescue Christine (who, in the book, went willingly, if brainwashed-ly). Before he, you know, puts him in a noose. Still. And Erik (Phantom) proves he really loves her at the end. I’ll be sobbing, I tell ya -- SOBBING!

Currently Reading: A Citizen’s Guide to Democracy Inaction by Jon Stewart/Daily Show

Listening To:
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Have a happy day!

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